Am I a Loner?

Am I a loner? The question always comes in my mind

Is it a choice or divine

No one has answered that, but it always come to my mind.

I walk along with people, being somewhere else

I don't laugh to jokes, and if ever they are not real

The thought of bonding is gone, is it that, I am alone.

No! this is not me

I had a laugh, but it was bit far

I too had buddies, with all everyone were fond.

I am letting myself inside the dusk

Waiting for the dark night, to cross the husk

The dawn will come, to wake me up

No I am not a loner

It is just a choice, not divine.

It is me who let loneliness, to cover me up

It is me who wanted to take my own time.

But no more, I am not a loner

The fun will come, the life will laugh

It was never divine, it was just a choice.

Still, am I a loner? The question comes to my mind

Hope the time will answer, it is not divine.